On a high

October 9, 2012 § Leave a comment

This is going to sound really cheesy, stupid, and sentimental, but having a baby has saved me. Just over a year ago, I felt lost, confused, and it seemed like my life was going nowhere. I worked, made good money, had close friends, but every morning I felt empty. At first I thought I was depressed, so I went to see a psychologist. I later realized it was because, at that time, I had surrounded myself with a complete jerk, who brought me down, and down very low. I’ve mentioned this before, but it helps to tell myself again. Soon after, a quick chain of events led to becoming pregnant by accident (not by afore-mentioned jerk, thankfully), and now, looking after a 5-month old on my own. I thought it would be harder, but it’s not. Her smiles in the morning make my heart burst. My life makes complete sense now. Nothing else matters. My daughter will be reading this in the future, so, my baby girl, when you’re old enough to read and understand this, you saved me. So, thank you.

Prepared

October 3, 2012 § Leave a comment

Long before my daughter was born, I prepared myself, for the sleepless nights.

She slept through the night from 6 weeks old, and still does. I sleep better now than before she was born.

I prepared myself, for the fussing and crying, and the mental exhaustion.

She hardly fusses, cries very little, and is easily soothed by some milk, sleep, and cuddles.

I prepared myself, for the lack of time to do anything, such as showering and eating.

She is so well-behaved, I have time to shower, put make-up on, clean, and cook. With no external help.

What I wasn’t prepared for, was the enormous amount of love I never knew I had for one tiny human being.

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