How and when
May 11, 2009 § 7 Comments
There are two things in this world which will forever remain a mystery to me. One is politics, and though I can tell Turnbull and Garrett apart, I have no idea as to exactly what they do and what it is they stand for. Because I never was a resident in one place for very long, being the age I am now, I have never voted in my entire life and the next election in 2011 will be my very first one. Sydney is the only place I have lived for such a long period of time. I don’t know whether to be excited or not.
The other thing I often wonder about is how on the earth I turned out the way I did. Being born in a closed society where my parents never talked to me about puberty or sex or drugs, and scenes of people kissing on tv is abruptly censored out, where we never display emotions or feelings, what happened? Malaysian schools certainly didn’t include those things in their curriculum. It’s a community of ignorance, where not openly discussing it means nothing will ever happen. How then is it possible that young girls get raped pretty much every single week, and that there are dozens of teen mothers who abandon their babies in the dump? No, they didn’t learn that in school.
Despite all of the above, I think I’m just lucky that I turned out to be normal. By normal I mean I don’t harbour repressed feelings, I know how to party and have fun, I can talk about sex freely with anyone who would like to discuss it, and I like physical affection. I get drunk once in a while, had my share of boys, and don’t abuse freely available drugs. Amidst all these ‘immoral’ activities, I studied my ass off and worked long and hard to build a professional career I’m really proud of. Along the way I didn’t get duped by sleazy men or get pregnant accidentally, and I’m not naive by a long shot.
How did I become this person? A mystery. An enigma.